Ludum Dare 33 — August 21st-24th, 2015 — Theme: You are the Monster

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Life as a monster inside a human

by mat1er - Compo Entry

That's not really a game, I just took advantage of this Ludum Dare to share a day of my life.

No real gameplay, no music because I broke my speakers, for a program made in 6 hours because of the impossibility for me to have more time to make it.

But that's it: this "game" try to share how I feel as being a guy and dreaming to be a girl...

You can press f4 if you want it to be in fullscreen.

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DaanVanYperen says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 8:49am

Good way to get people immersed in your daily life. Interesting take on the theme!

uthamon says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 9:34am

I'm certainly not in a position to know how you feel and I won't try to tell you something "uplifting". I just want to let you know, that there are people who care. Thank You for this game and You should definetely make one on next Ludum Dare.

Gaga says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 10:28am

Thanks for sharing. Well told.

ccglp says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 11:04am

Never surrender with your personal problems, well done :)

Leopoldine says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 11:06am

Interesting story.
Try to make it as a game next time : )

Aug 24, 2015 @ 11:16am

Really good and story based! :D

madjackmcmad says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 11:19am

If you're alive then there's still a chance for you to get what you want.

congusbongus says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 11:24am

I enjoyed this game! It's a great effort for 6 hours; I think you can make excellent RPGs like this, hope to see more from you.

Gil4 says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 11:26am

Can't rate it high overall, but giving you my first 5 for the theme, as "monstrous reality" topic is a lot more important than the usual monsters from stories stuff in my opinion. Stay strong, I'm sure you'll find your happiness. :)

raducumiczzz says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 8:18pm

Stay strong bro, good things happen to great people. Things will get better for ya!

MegasDragos1 says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 8:27pm

Sorry, I tried to play your but the window was too small and my eyes start to burn from reading that little text! But looks interesting from what I already seen in it.

AlariSilver says ...
Aug 24, 2015 @ 8:29pm

This is... wow. Amazing that you can do this in 6 hours, and sad to hear your story. I hope that one day in the future you can get what you need.

S0rax says ...
Aug 25, 2015 @ 2:34pm

Nice game for 6 hours

reiknight says ...
Aug 27, 2015 @ 10:55am

Cool story. Take my like sir!

Divitos says ...
Aug 27, 2015 @ 10:58am

I feel like commenting on the game would be irrelevant, but at the same time I have to say that mo matter what happens to you and no matter what kind of shit people give you, just keep strong and be yourself because that's all that matters. If a bunch of people want to conform to some fake standard of normal that's their problem, don't let their ridicule of your non conformance get to you.

daveh says ...
Aug 29, 2015 @ 7:10pm

It's a thought provoking twist on the theme. Thank you for sharing your story and your feelings.

Erlend Aakre says ...
Sep 3, 2015 @ 1:49pm

Great entry, thanks for sharing this. Trying to think of something inspiring to say but the best I can do is quote winnie-the-pooh: "The things that make me different are the things that make me."

Jelinib says ...
Sep 7, 2015 @ 8:54pm

Sad story. Thank you for sharing this, and I hope things will get better in the future!

mat1er says ...
Sep 14, 2015 @ 5:44am

Thank you everybody for your comments, you're all great!

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